Here I am again, blogging.
Although I write daily in my private journal, I am struggling to write this post because it’s personal and in some ways painful to relive. I’m of the view that you should benefit from your pain and help others too – that’s why I’m writing this post.
Back in 2016, I appeared to be successful. I had achieved so much before the age of 28 by becoming a solicitor advocate, authoring a book and winning awards for entrepreneurship. I’m proud of my achievements but looking back I was too serious, too focused and too imbalanced. I worked very hard and was riddled with stress. I couldn’t go on like this.
I had to do an analysis of my life and start making changes. I had to. My mental health was at stake.
I carved out a weekend from my busy schedule and listed what wasn’t working for me. It was a very difficult exercise because I didn’t feel I had the energy to face whatever I was about to discover.
The results of my analysis were:
- I wanted to be liked.
- I suppressed the explorer in me.
- I lived to please others.
- I placed my value in my achievements.
- I didn’t respect myself.
- I didn’t believe in myself.
- I was a perfectionist.
- I was scared of success.
- I compared myself to others.
- I was wounded and refused to love.
Over the next couple of months I’ll take you through how I dealt with each issue over the past 18 months. I hope this helps someone.
Until next time.